It has been just over a year since the first lockdown happened that we all thought would be 'just a couple of weeks'. A year of cancelled events and weddings, reimagined holidays and celebrations.
How are you doing? Me - I am exhausted.
My day job is in health care. I have seen first hand what this virus does and how easily is spreads. I have seen it travel through a population by an asymptomatic carrier. Because of this I have radically changed how I do my spiritual practice/workshops/classes/connections.
Lately I have seen many fellow spiritual practitioners start up in person retreats or workshops or classes. I weigh this out in my head. One side says 'with masks and proper sanitizing it should be safe' and the other side says 'but is it even worth the risk'. My rapidly shrinking business and bank account are for the former and my moral code and sense of responsibility to others are with the latter and that one will always win out.
I have been flirting with starting on-line offerings and it gets pushed to the side with my optimistic outlook that maybe this will end soon. I really feel like I am standing at a fork in the road and both paths are full of obstacles.
I miss hugs. I miss teaching. I miss that connection of sitting in sacred space with others. I miss creating things together. I miss community.
I am struggling with how to balance it all. How are YOU dealing with it? I would love to hear more about that. I am going to make a larger commitment to being an on line presence more and set up an out door space for readings as the weather will allow. This is a baby step forward into a new way of being. A shift in direction of taking control back instead of waiting for it to be over.